Three years ago.
I’ve always liked to write, especially around my birthdays.
Usually whatever age I turned, I’d write a list of lessons with that number or a list of things I was grateful for.
This year, I didn’t write anything until now because my mind wasn’t in a healthy place.
However, the theme was different – it was 28 truths instead.
I had to really sit down and dig deep for this one. It was truths that I didn’t want to address, but had to in order to change my own narrative.
Some can be changed with simply working towards different, others are going to be more emotional in nature and require forgiveness, healing, and a changing of mindset.
But writing out my truths show me that I’m not done. I’m not stuck. I am capable of changing my life – one truth at a time.
Next, I wrote 28 things that I want to let go of and they all seemed to be false ideas that I’ve been carrying around – about myself and my capabilities.
I’ve always thought of the ocean as a vessel for pain and trauma and grief, but also healing and recharging.
It’s like the ocean holds for you what you need to let go of, so you can be free like the salt water is.
So, I folded up my 28 statements of letting go and dropped them in the salt water and the ocean swallowed them up for me.
Obviously, it’s not as easy as soggy wet printer paper.
But I have intention now.
I’m ready to do the soul work necessary to get to the next level and chapter of my life.
–S.
The Messy Middle 🖤 