saying-goodbye – The Messy Middle 🖤

Wild.

Deep in the woods,

I’m covered in soot.

I’m howling at the moon,

why’d you leave me so soon?

I burned it all down,

you tried to turn it around,

but you had to leave me wild.

I’ve been hungry for love since I was a child.

I’m needy,

a little greedy,

how’d you leave me,

so easy?

–S.

Goodnight butterflies.

Goodnight fireflies.

Goodnight crying eyes.

Goodnight laughing kisses,

and every day blisses.

Goodnight you.

Goodnight me.

Goodnight to all of the things we didn’t get to be.

Goodnight to all we did not see.

Goodnight love,

and goodnight again, to all of the above.

–S.

I collect your goodbye.

I place it with the others.

I collect the darkness.

And all that it smothers.

I collect the grief.

And my own disbelief.

I collect the dust.

And the rust.

–S.

Excerpt from a letter that now almost seems like it was written in a past life.

I’ll miss your stories. I’ll miss fighting with you.

I’ll miss your deep voice. I’ll miss knowing you.

I’ll miss hearing your smile through the phone. I’ll miss you calling me on your lunch break.

I’ll miss falling asleep to your text messages. I’ll miss waking up to your text messages.

I will miss everything so fucking much.

God, it’s really over.

My heart is so heavy.

It is so so tired.

–S.