For my heart, you’re a maze.
I see you, through a haze.
You burn me, like a blaze.
My head is in a fucking craze.
Starving for you, but I’m just allowed to graze.
Time removes the glaze.
Nothing ever stays.
–S.
For my heart, you’re a maze.
I see you, through a haze.
You burn me, like a blaze.
My head is in a fucking craze.
Starving for you, but I’m just allowed to graze.
Time removes the glaze.
Nothing ever stays.
–S.
I’ve been lying again.
I know we’re trying again,
but I can’t let the past go.
We both know.
I feel like I’m dying again,
I’ve been crying again,
but I try my best to not let it show.
–S.
I’m pretending.
It is neverending.
I break myself apart.
I put myself together.
I build myself up, to withstand any weather.
I skip.
I jump.
I walk.
I crawl.
Whatever you want,
I can do it all.
When you’re not looking,
I fall.
I break.
I cry.
How can you be overlooking,
all the cracks?
I’ll hold myself together.
I promise, I’ll try.
–S.
I collect your goodbye.
I place it with the others.
I collect the darkness.
And all that it smothers.
I collect the grief.
And my own disbelief.
I collect the dust.
And the rust.
–S.
Tic, Tac, Toe,
who would know,
that you meant no when you said go?
–S.
Trying to change you, only changed me.
In love with your potential, so I couldn’t see.
Trying to change you and now I hate me.
–S.
I don’t miss the lying,
but I miss the dying,
of laughter.
I don’t know what it is that you were after,
but it wasn’t me.
I wonder and wonder,
but I still can’t see,
there’s no rhyme or reason,
it just wasn’t meant to be.
–S.
Do you ever feel like you took a step once and got stuck?
Life went on, but a part of you never moved on from that moment.
That’s me.
Where you left me, I’ll be.
The same things are all I see.
–S.
Missing you is like breathing.
I don’t need a reason.
You are my favorite season.
Why my heart is beating.
–S.
Grieving you.
Mourning you.
You are not dead.
Grieving you.
Mourning you.
We are dead.
Grieving you.
Mourning you.
You live in my head.
Grieving you.
Mourning you.
You love me in my head.
Grieving you.
Mourning you.
I’ll let you go when I’m dead.
–S.