Did you miss me?
Did you still want to kiss me?
Two yesses and everything is hazy.
Only you, make me this crazy.
No need to hide it,
they’ve certified it.
White room,
white jacket,
my heart,
you attack it.
–S.
Did you miss me?
Did you still want to kiss me?
Two yesses and everything is hazy.
Only you, make me this crazy.
No need to hide it,
they’ve certified it.
White room,
white jacket,
my heart,
you attack it.
–S.
You’re the monster under my bed,
the nightmare in my head,
the feeling in total darkness – of dread,
my closet filled with regret,
the reason I pled.
–S.
You view me.
You want to ruin me.
You chase me.
You scare me.
You analyze me.
You paralyze me.
You kill me.
You haunt me.
–S.
A “Hey.” text at 2am,
makes me see red,
knocks me out of the bed,
messes with my head,
makes sure all of my defenses are dead,
and feeds my hungry heart until it’s fed.
–S.
What’s it like to leave me behind?
If you knew then what you know now,
would you leave a second time?
What’s it like to leave me behind?
For me, it felt like it stopped time.
What’s it like to leave me behind?
I stayed yours, but you were no longer mine.
What’s it like to leave me behind?
…
Why do I do this to myself?
Nevermind.
–S.
If they asked you to name three things about me,
you’d name three things you wanted me to be.
–S.
You’re too much.
You must like to be sad at lunch.
Just get over it.
You should have more grit.
You make everything about you.
The things you’re saying aren’t true.
…
Maybe I am too sensitive.
Maybe so many things shouldn’t hurt me.
I was trying to show you something,
but you refused to see.
…
I guess, you’re right, I’m what’s wrong with me.
–S.
What’s the price for a moment of your time?
What’s the cost for a simple hug?
What’s the amount for sparing a moment of love?
…
I know you’re not to blame for all of my vices,
but all of these prices –
caused emotional slices,
while everyone assumed you were the nicest.
–S.
You were supposed to love me the most,
but instead you gave me daily improvement notes.
You were supposed to love me endlessy,
but all you did was judge me.
You were supposed to love me unconditionally,
but all you did was alienate me.
You were supposed to love me fully,
but all you did was make me hate me.
–S.
I’m grabbing at ghosts.
Reaching for something real, but it’s just smoke.
I’m grabbing at ghosts.
I thought it was mine,
almost.
–S.