I know you think you blew it, Daisy.
But you can do it, Daisy.
You’ve been through a lot of bullshit, Daisy.
But you will get through it, Daisy.
I know it’s easier to quit, Daisy.
But you can commit, Daisy.
You’re stronger than you think,
more capable than you know,
you have everything it takes,
to make yourself grow.
Do it, Daisy.
–S.
Was I too much or not enough?
Scared of vulnerability, did I act too tough?
Emotional, did I deliver it all too rough?
Walking ultimatum, did I call my own bluff?
Love like quicksand, did I make you feel stuck?
Loads of insecurities, did they make you not give a fuck?
Was I just not built of all the right stuff?
Well, was I too much or not enough?
–S.
Kiss me slow,
when you go.
Love me hard,
only the way you know.
Miss me slow,
let the wanting grow.
Hug me hard,
never let me go.
–S.
I’m still protecting you.
I know it doesn’t look like it.
I’m trying to learn how to be better,
even though it seems like we’re taking hit after hit.
I’m still protecting you.
I know it doesn’t look like much.
We’re still weird about human touch,
and we’re still impatient, we want everything in a rush.
We self-sabotage often, we still crush.
Swear, I’m still protecting you,
–S.
To my knees, you bring me.
Hoping, you’ll forgive me.
It hits me, within me,
a desperation you’ll pick me,
–S.
It’s too risky,
the little you want to give me,
could kill me.
It’s too risky,
all the things you hide,
might thrill me.
It’s too risky,
minimal attention,
might bring me,
to my knees.
–S.
You broke me,
slowly,
left me in the lonely.
But,
I’m still,
holy.
–S.
I met all the ones that weren’t ready.
The ones who didn’t want to go steady.
The ones that only wanted hot and heavy.
It’s been a deadly medley,
that left me empty.
I met the ones with ego and envy.
Of those, there were plenty.
I met petty,
an assembly of fake friendly.
It’s been a deadly medley,
that left me empty.
–S.
Please don’t believe everything they tell you.
It was sky for a good while,
and then it was more artic.
Walked right into berry,
swam with indigo,
and dried off with navy.
Then things got lighter,
and it went ocean, teal, sapphire.
Went back to a little darker,
and it went lapis, cobalt, azure.
I think I’ve been every shade of blue.
–S.
Millions of people but the city feels too small for us both.
I drive up the coast,
and try to get lost in the country,
I’m looking for the place where you might still love me.
I ask for directions,
I even buy a map.
At a rest stop in Texas,
it hits me,
it’s a wrap,
and that’s that.
–S.
The Messy Middle 🖤 