Was I too much or not enough?
Scared of vulnerability, did I act too tough?
Emotional, did I deliver it all too rough?
Walking ultimatum, did I call my own bluff?
Love like quicksand, did I make you feel stuck?
Loads of insecurities, did they make you not give a fuck?
Was I just not built of all the right stuff?
Well, was I too much or not enough?
–S.
I’m the loneliest,
the onliest,
girl in the world.
I know you only just,
left.
I’m the loneliest,
the onliest,
girl in the world.
I know we’re only just,
friends.
I’m the loneliest,
the onliest,
girl in the world.
I know you’ll only just,
forget.
–S.
It’s the salt,
in the air,
your memory,
everywhere.
It’s on my tongue,
in my hair,
your memory,
everywhere.
It’s in my cells,
a part of every smell,
your memory,
everywhere.
It runs in my blood,
coats my lungs,
your memory,
everywhere.
–S.
Sigh a little,
cry a little,
die a little,
without you.
I lie a little,
to survive the middle,
without you.
I try a little,
to survive the middle,
without you.
I get high a little,
to survive the middle,
without you.
I sigh a little,
cry a little,
die a little,
without you.
–S.
Kiss me slow,
when you go.
Love me hard,
only the way you know.
Miss me slow,
let the wanting grow.
Hug me hard,
never let me go.
–S.
White rose,
kiss on the nose,
emotionally naked, no clothes,
fell in love with hope,
ended up alone,
shop closed.
–S.
Poisonous, venomous, snake.
Gluttonous, all you do is take.
Villainous, killed us.
Nothing left to discuss,
Taught me that love is not enough.
–S.
Denim on denim.
Hands like velvet.
Mouth like heaven.
Words like venom.
–S.
I wouldn’t change it.
I can’t name it.
I know you hate it.
We exchanged it.
Say it.
-S.
Feels like a high school crush,
coca-cola sugar rush,
electric, fingers brush,
on fire, one touch.
Could you always love me this much?
–S.
The Messy Middle 🖤 